Drops of Rain Years Apart

Each passing of time without you

I am undone, I am lost, I am wanderer

Incoherent longings escape

From the lips of my soul

Each beat of my heart grows weaker

Where are you?

Was it a dream, that day?

When your eye pierced through me

Esa mirada dulce

When you called me to your side

Ay, el sabor del sol

That shattered the darkness

This silence is debilitating

I can’t breathe, it’s easier to not

Breathe…

Maybe you and I were always nothing

Maybe you and I, were never

You and I…

For when you are away

I am widowed, orphaned

Desolate and parched

Ryan Adams said it best

“Give me a sign, just a wink, even just a sigh”

Do you still remember me, Darling

Just a moment ago, I was sure

Just a moment ago, we grew closer

word by word, breath by breath

Just a moment ago…

Maybe it’s good to know longing like this

For their suffering is not far gone

I too, know it well,

the depth of hunger, ages without food

the weight of thirst, drops of rain years apart

the suffocation of cold, naked and exposed

the echo of solitude as sickness takes hold,

            and my cell grows smaller, squeezing life from my heart

Into nothing

Nothing is who I am without you

Nothing

…

…

…

…

Asleep and dying

I forget my frame and its contents

My thoughts, balloons slipped from fringes

            Lingering in nothing until innocent birds are entangled

And there are no wing beats

Drums beats

Heart beats

Only the flailing arms of the clock

Spinning wildly, no order

As nothing can quench my eyes

Or my heart’s thirst for beauty,

Sustenance…

Will my arms ever embrace you

And your warmth again meet me

Lavished by that sweet scent

I miss you.

For no one has loved

As you have loved me

So I will cling to the hem of your garment

I will cherish the crumbs from your table

I will wash your feet with my tears

For you stood before me

Where all have judged

And said I am yours

You said we were one